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Don't kid yourself, and don't fool yourself.
05 February 2010 @ 07:21 pm
25 January 2010 @ 02:42 am
When you've grown up too fast, you start to notice the people around you changing. Sometimes you like who they are after, sometimes you don't. It's not that something is wrong with them, it's just that it takes you a little while to realize that there was a time in your life where you changed, and you're not the same person you used to be. You think that you've matured, "grown up," and you assume that by a certain age that everyone else has. So you feel alienated and alone when you see it happen to other people, thinking that you've missed out on some big part of your youth that was taken away from you because you had to grow up too fast.
I've known who I was since I was 17, and every day since then has just been me learning more about that person, gaining a better understanding of myself and my relation to the world.
To see people (older than I am) only just now figuring it out , it's frustrating. Frustrating that I feel I was robbed of those extra years of the freedom of youth, and frustrating that it's taken so many people this damn long to finally figure it all out.
I've known who I was since I was 17, and every day since then has just been me learning more about that person, gaining a better understanding of myself and my relation to the world.
To see people (older than I am) only just now figuring it out , it's frustrating. Frustrating that I feel I was robbed of those extra years of the freedom of youth, and frustrating that it's taken so many people this damn long to finally figure it all out.
28 December 2009 @ 04:09 pm
Last night I was driving home from my friend Jania's house through this wealthy and quiet suburban neighborhood. It's in the part of the city that is well developed with homes but is away from all shops, where houses neighbor the woods. I was at a stop sign about to turn right and go down a small hill when I see some animal run past my car. It was too big and fast to be a cat, so I thought it must have been a lost dog. I made the turn and followed down to see this young coyote running down the hill right in the middle of the street. I didn't pass it or honk, I just let it trot on front of me like it wanted to. It was so cute and small, it must have still been a puppy. I was following behind it at 20mph with my lights on and it only looked back at me a couple times with it's pointy ears all perked up. We reached a 4-way stop and the coyote turned right and I turned left. I really hope that puppy got to wherever it needed to be so quickly! ♥
17 December 2009 @ 11:59 pm
( Warning: Obscene Amounts of Christmas Cheer )
13 December 2009 @ 06:00 pm
I saw The Princess and the Frog last night and I loved it! I'm really glad Disney hasn't forgotten about their classic structure of 2D animated films completely. The artwork was absolutely stunning and beautiful and the storyline was really cute and endearing as well. There's a group of main characters who you really care about with a really really super cool villain who even I thought was scary at times. Also, I've been a bit disappointed as of late for the amount of sexism I've been witnessing (rather blatantly) in the media and from male friends, and then Disney goes and makes a princess whose a hard working single gal with two jobs! Ha!
You should all go see this movie, I definitely recommend it! Take your family or kids or friends or whoever. Even though it's a princess movie, I think there's something in it that everyone can enjoy ♥
10 December 2009 @ 04:01 am
Or more like dashes >.>
-I'm writing a book. Um. That feels weird to say actually. It was November 30th and I was looking at NaNoWriMo stuff and got the idea. I texted my friend Donica and basically said "So like...do you want to have an epic novel writing challenge?" I'm actually taking it seriously though. Our goal is two months but it's mostly however much we can get done in that time.
-I have a week to pretend I know how to play guitar well enough to pass a final >.>
-The List for this year was solely disappointing. The shows I went to were amazing, that's no doubt, but 11 compared to last year's 20? ;__; x zillion.
-Threadless was having an awesome $9 shirt sale and I got 3 (>.<) Granted one was for Donica, but still XD
-Left4Dead2 IS SO MUCH FUN OMG ZAMBEEEEEEEEEEZ
-Instead of buying Christmas gifts for my friends I opted to donate to a couple charities on their behalf instead. I know, I know. I can hear Heaven's gates opening for me already. I let them choose from NRDC, Maasai Wilderness Conservation Trust, and Invisible Children.
-Speaking of Christmas, REQUEST CHRISTMAS CARDS HERE!! I know I haven't been good with updating this year or commenting elsewhere but I'm still hereand paranoid that I'll be that girl and no one will want cards (>.<)
-Muse US (and Canadian?) tour in March/April of 2010 YEEEEEEE. I know what I'm asking for Christmas =D The gift of MUSIC and MEMORIES and BELLS and SPIDERMAN and SIT. THE FUCK. DOWN!!!!!
-The paint on the walls in my new room is not house paint. It is super slick and poster tabs won't stick to it. THIS IS A BIG PROBLEM FOR ME.
-I want to live in a book store.
Good night! Marvel at the return of my one and only Christmas icon!
-I'm writing a book. Um. That feels weird to say actually. It was November 30th and I was looking at NaNoWriMo stuff and got the idea. I texted my friend Donica and basically said "So like...do you want to have an epic novel writing challenge?" I'm actually taking it seriously though. Our goal is two months but it's mostly however much we can get done in that time.
-I have a week to pretend I know how to play guitar well enough to pass a final >.>
-The List for this year was solely disappointing. The shows I went to were amazing, that's no doubt, but 11 compared to last year's 20? ;__; x zillion.
-Threadless was having an awesome $9 shirt sale and I got 3 (>.<) Granted one was for Donica, but still XD
-Left4Dead2 IS SO MUCH FUN OMG ZAMBEEEEEEEEEEZ
-Instead of buying Christmas gifts for my friends I opted to donate to a couple charities on their behalf instead. I know, I know. I can hear Heaven's gates opening for me already. I let them choose from NRDC, Maasai Wilderness Conservation Trust, and Invisible Children.
-Speaking of Christmas, REQUEST CHRISTMAS CARDS HERE!! I know I haven't been good with updating this year or commenting elsewhere but I'm still here
-Muse US (and Canadian?) tour in March/April of 2010 YEEEEEEE. I know what I'm asking for Christmas =D The gift of MUSIC and MEMORIES and BELLS and SPIDERMAN and SIT. THE FUCK. DOWN!!!!!
-The paint on the walls in my new room is not house paint. It is super slick and poster tabs won't stick to it. THIS IS A BIG PROBLEM FOR ME.
-I want to live in a book store.
Good night! Marvel at the return of my one and only Christmas icon!
09 December 2009 @ 07:42 pm
I finally found Christmas cards that I like! It only took four stores >.> They're also made from 50% recycled paper and 50% recycled sugar cane by-product! Ha!
If you'd like a card (that is holiday neutral, btw) leave your address in the comments! Screened, of course, and international is ok too ^^
Merry Christmas everyone! ♥
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psychicherz' cards trumps all. Eve, OMG. The card is so beautiful! It is absolutely the best Christmas card I have ever seen! I never want to throw it away haha XD Thank you so much ♥
If you'd like a card (that is holiday neutral, btw) leave your address in the comments! Screened, of course, and international is ok too ^^
Merry Christmas everyone! ♥
p.s.
psychicherz' cards trumps all. Eve, OMG. The card is so beautiful! It is absolutely the best Christmas card I have ever seen! I never want to throw it away haha XD Thank you so much ♥26 November 2009 @ 01:48 am
Leave me a comment saying "Beichte!"
I'll respond by asking you four-five questions so I can get to know you better.
Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions ♥
Questions fromdragonflyeyes:
1. When have you felt the guiltiest in your life?
I generally try to live my life guilt-free but I feel the guiltiest when I've hurt people that I care a lot about. I can't think of anything recently, but I remember once when I was younger, maybe about 10 yrs old, I did something to really upset my mom. I can't even remember what I did, but I remember bursting into her room and running up to her crying because I felt so bad about it. I can't stand hurting people I care about so it just crushes me (>.<)
2. Do you consider yourself to be a good liar?
I'm much too good of a liar, so much so that it bothers me sometimes. However, I honestly don't lie/feel the need to lie very often at all so these skills are thankfully not often put to use.
3. Do you believe in anything as an "absolute" universal morality, or do you believe in complete subjectivity?
I absolutely believe that everything is subjective. If I had a distinct guideline by which I live my life, it would probably have to do with that. I have a certain set of standards/morals that I live by that I hold myself and only myself to. For instance, I don't believe a priest is any more moral than a murderer. That may sound a bit extreme, but I always think about things from the other person's point of view. If a serial killer has a physically, medically abnormal brain and has thoughts and urges that he/she can't control and is, for them, completely typical, I don't see that person as any less moral than any other person. It's just how they are and they can't help it. That doesn't mean I think that the things they do aren't sick or that they don't need help, but it also doesn't mean I think I'm a better, more moral person than they are.
4. Would you ever take part in/compete on any kind of reality show, and if so, what kind would you be willing to do?
I would be so boring on a reality show because the only interesting people are the ones who cause all the drama haha. I never watched but maybe something like The Amazing Race where you have to figure your way through one side of the world to another. That would be really exciting but I would probably lose haha. I wouldn't be racing, I'd just be like moseying my way through the city XD
5. If you could get paid to do absolutely anything in the world, what would you do for a living?
I would totally be a rockstar. Hell if I got to travel the world and play music I would do it as slave labor if I had to.
I'll respond by asking you four-five questions so I can get to know you better.
Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions ♥
Questions from
dragonflyeyes:1. When have you felt the guiltiest in your life?
I generally try to live my life guilt-free but I feel the guiltiest when I've hurt people that I care a lot about. I can't think of anything recently, but I remember once when I was younger, maybe about 10 yrs old, I did something to really upset my mom. I can't even remember what I did, but I remember bursting into her room and running up to her crying because I felt so bad about it. I can't stand hurting people I care about so it just crushes me (>.<)
2. Do you consider yourself to be a good liar?
I'm much too good of a liar, so much so that it bothers me sometimes. However, I honestly don't lie/feel the need to lie very often at all so these skills are thankfully not often put to use.
3. Do you believe in anything as an "absolute" universal morality, or do you believe in complete subjectivity?
I absolutely believe that everything is subjective. If I had a distinct guideline by which I live my life, it would probably have to do with that. I have a certain set of standards/morals that I live by that I hold myself and only myself to. For instance, I don't believe a priest is any more moral than a murderer. That may sound a bit extreme, but I always think about things from the other person's point of view. If a serial killer has a physically, medically abnormal brain and has thoughts and urges that he/she can't control and is, for them, completely typical, I don't see that person as any less moral than any other person. It's just how they are and they can't help it. That doesn't mean I think that the things they do aren't sick or that they don't need help, but it also doesn't mean I think I'm a better, more moral person than they are.
4. Would you ever take part in/compete on any kind of reality show, and if so, what kind would you be willing to do?
I would be so boring on a reality show because the only interesting people are the ones who cause all the drama haha. I never watched but maybe something like The Amazing Race where you have to figure your way through one side of the world to another. That would be really exciting but I would probably lose haha. I wouldn't be racing, I'd just be like moseying my way through the city XD
5. If you could get paid to do absolutely anything in the world, what would you do for a living?
I would totally be a rockstar. Hell if I got to travel the world and play music I would do it as slave labor if I had to.
17 November 2009 @ 02:49 pm
@LolRaquel Well, you know. Twilight is really just A Clockwork Orange with less rape and more hot vampires.
@sdavidmiller And all this time I thought it was just anti-feminist Mormon propaganda Mary-Sue badfiction.
@LolRaquel That's the beauty of it, is the complexity.
@sdavidmiller Edward is an allegory for media saturation and Bella is the consumer. Their love is social commentary on American livelihood.
We went to a good high school.
14 November 2009 @ 12:42 am
Does anyone know more about charities that will help cancer patients pay for their hospital bills? I know they exist, I'm just having a hard time finding them. My brother is doing not so well monetarily after his surgery because his insurance wouldn't cover it all and his work isn't giving him paid time off for his recovery.
23 September 2009 @ 03:50 pm
22 September 2009 @ 07:33 pm
( Zucchini fries? Zucchini sticks? Breaded fry-like shapes de la zucchinis. )
21 September 2009 @ 03:17 pm
( Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished... )
Current Music: Muse - Uprising
04 August 2009 @ 09:32 pm
I've held off on saying this for a while because I know a lot of you really like her, but I was filled with so much rage when I saw this that I just have to get this off my chest.
I can't fucking STAND Lady Gaga. It's uneducated self-entitled twats like her who inspire white girls everywhere to aspire no higher than being a snobby cunt. There is nothing original about her. She is not a fashion icon. She's doing the same shit that TONS of other musicians have been doing since the 80's, but since she ~writes her own music~ she feels entitled to the ranks of a very serious ~*ARTIST*~ the likes of which this world has never seen. Because the world and western culture has definitely been changed significantly with such catchy tunes as:
1. Just dance, gonna be ok, da da doo doo just dance.
2. Can't read my, can't read my, no he can't read my, poker face.
3. Let's have some fun, this beat is sick, I wanna take a ride on your disco stick.
As far as I'm concerned, if you're coming out with the same shitty unoriginal pop tracks as all other pop acts are, it doesn't really matter if you wrote it yourself or not. Shit music is still shit music, no matter who wrote it.
And finally, if you're not a feminist or think feminism is all about men-hating lesbians, then you're FUCKING RETARDED. Lady Gaga needs to remove the disco stick shoved up her cunt and open a fucking book.
I can't fucking STAND Lady Gaga. It's uneducated self-entitled twats like her who inspire white girls everywhere to aspire no higher than being a snobby cunt. There is nothing original about her. She is not a fashion icon. She's doing the same shit that TONS of other musicians have been doing since the 80's, but since she ~writes her own music~ she feels entitled to the ranks of a very serious ~*ARTIST*~ the likes of which this world has never seen. Because the world and western culture has definitely been changed significantly with such catchy tunes as:
1. Just dance, gonna be ok, da da doo doo just dance.
2. Can't read my, can't read my, no he can't read my, poker face.
3. Let's have some fun, this beat is sick, I wanna take a ride on your disco stick.
As far as I'm concerned, if you're coming out with the same shitty unoriginal pop tracks as all other pop acts are, it doesn't really matter if you wrote it yourself or not. Shit music is still shit music, no matter who wrote it.
And finally, if you're not a feminist or think feminism is all about men-hating lesbians, then you're FUCKING RETARDED. Lady Gaga needs to remove the disco stick shoved up her cunt and open a fucking book.
02 August 2009 @ 11:34 pm
Paranoia is in bloom
Appearing transmissions will resume
They'll try to push drugs and keep us all dumbed down
And hope that we will never see the truth around
So get up
Another promise, another scene
Another package right to keep us trapped in greed
Green belts wrapped around our minds
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
So get up
They will not force us
And they will stop degrading us
And they will not control us
And we will be victorious
So get up
Interchanging mind control
Come let the revolution take its toll
If you could fake a switch and open your third eye
You'd see that we should never be afraid to die
So get up
Rise up and take the power back
Its time the fat cats had a heart attack
You know that their time is coming to an end
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend
They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious
So get up
They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious
So get up
31 July 2009 @ 06:50 pm
28 July 2009 @ 03:14 pm
I DON'T REALLY KNOW WTF IS GOING ON I'M REALLY CONFUSED PORQUUUUUUE BUT APPARENTLY I JUST GOT INVITED TO A FREE ~*~EXKLOOSEEV~*~ MCR GIG AT THE ROXY THIS SATURDAY.
Members of the MCRmy,
As a thank you for being loyal fans of My Chemical Romance for so
long, we’re inviting you to be the first to register for
MyChemicalRomance.com. This means that you’ll be able to add your
thoughts on MCR’s blog posts, get your own profile at MCR.com, and
more features coming!
You have also been chosen to join My Chemical Romance at the ROXY in
Los Angeles on either July 31st or August 1st for a free private club
show.
You will be given a unique code to claim one pair of tickets for one
of the two shows. That means that it can only be used one time. Do not
post this anywhere, or someone may use your code before you do. Note
– this offer is only for a pair of tickets. Travel or hotels (if you
need them) are not provided – just the tickets!
Your unique code: **********
To claim your ticket to one of the shows, register for the site, here.
There are only 100 pairs of tickets to each show, so reserve yours
right away. Once they’re gone, they’re gone. Good luck!
SO YEAH. I'M REALLY FUCKING CONFUSED BUT KINDA INSANELY EXCITED RIGHT NOW. I HAVE TWO TICKETS RESERVED FOR SATURDAY. THIS E-MAIL CAME IN MY SPAM FOLDER. WTF WTF WTFFFFF.
Members of the MCRmy,
As a thank you for being loyal fans of My Chemical Romance for so
long, we’re inviting you to be the first to register for
MyChemicalRomance.com. This means that you’ll be able to add your
thoughts on MCR’s blog posts, get your own profile at MCR.com, and
more features coming!
You have also been chosen to join My Chemical Romance at the ROXY in
Los Angeles on either July 31st or August 1st for a free private club
show.
You will be given a unique code to claim one pair of tickets for one
of the two shows. That means that it can only be used one time. Do not
post this anywhere, or someone may use your code before you do. Note
– this offer is only for a pair of tickets. Travel or hotels (if you
need them) are not provided – just the tickets!
Your unique code: **********
To claim your ticket to one of the shows, register for the site, here.
There are only 100 pairs of tickets to each show, so reserve yours
right away. Once they’re gone, they’re gone. Good luck!
SO YEAH. I'M REALLY FUCKING CONFUSED BUT KINDA INSANELY EXCITED RIGHT NOW. I HAVE TWO TICKETS RESERVED FOR SATURDAY. THIS E-MAIL CAME IN MY SPAM FOLDER. WTF WTF WTFFFFF.
22 July 2009 @ 04:24 pm
20 July 2009 @ 04:18 am
PROJECT EURASIA INTERNAL DOCUMENTATION
FINAL PHASE RECOGNITION SCENARIO
STANDBY PLAN BRAVO NINER GRAN AJEDREZ FINAL PHASE IS GO.
HUMINT RESOURCE MOBILIZATION HAS DEPENDENCIES ON USB RECOGNITION KEYCODE ACQUISITION FROM DROP LOCATION. KEYCODE UTILISATION WILL INDICATE THAT UNITED STATES OF AMERICA RECOGNISES NEW UNITED STATES OF EURASIA. RECOGNITION WILL TRIGGER MP3 DOWNLOAD OF RESOURCE MIKE UNIFORM SIERRA ECHO//UNITED STATES OF EURASIA FOR ALL ACTIVE HUMINT RESOURCES.
PRIORITY FLASH: FAILURE OF UNITED STATES OF AMERICA TO RECOGNISE UNITED STATES OF EURASIA BY 20090721:1830 BST / 20090721:1330 LOCAL STATION TIME, WILL INITIATE PROJECT EURASIA / GRAN AJEDREZ (BRAVO NINER) LOCKDOWN CRISIS LIMITATION MODE. THE RESISTANCE WILL BE MOBILISED.
DOES UNITED STATES OF AMERICA RECOGNISE NEW UNITED STATES OF EURASIA?
TO ACKNOWLEDGE RECOGNITION, ENTER USB UNLOCK CODE BEFORE 20090721:1330 LOCAL STATION TIME. IF USB ENTRY CODE IS NOT ENTERED BY 20090721:1330 LOCAL STATION TIME, UNITED STATES OF EURASIA WILL NOT BE RECOGNISED.>
EURASIA MUST NOT BE RECOGNIZED! THE RESISTANCE MUST BE MOBILISED!! GOD DAMMIT SOMEONE GET TO NYC AND DESTROY THAT DAMN USB!!
